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First and foremost, thank you sooooo much to mat cyber (what ever that i owe you, insya-ALLAH..someday ye my fren ;) ) for guiding me to do this post.

It is an episode from one of my favourite series, "One Tree Hill". This episode was aired last Tuesday. Lucky for me to watch it because I totally loveeeeeeeeeee this part of the episode, especially the scene between Brooke & Peyton. I cried..ye..menangis walaupun tak meleleh air hidung..why? Ni yang nak cerita ni..hehe

I was heartbroken (i hate to use this word, but i have to be honest, kan?..huhu) too tapi situasi aku tak serius macam Peyton. Situasi bermaksud, I was not in love with the guy (hmm..aku pun tak sure la love ke tak..haha)..at that time, I was hoping that he could be dot..dot..dot..

When I found out about his real intention..ya, di situlah aku mengalami situasi si Peyton. Instead of crying on my bestfriend shoulder, I cried in the toilet (aku semakin jujur kan..kan..kan..???hehe). When I watched the scene, I wish thing would be different for me. I wish, I was crying on my bestfriend shoulder. I wish my bestfriend could tell me how to let go, just like Brooke did..I wish I was not alone..

The scene was just a flashback from one of my life episodes, but it made me realize, how I wished I had my bestfriend with me during the lowest moment of my life..

~fin~

TaG

"The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results, and post it as your answer. After that tag 6 people."

I am..

I really want to go to..

My favourite place..

My favourite things are..

plus..

and of course

My favourite drinks are..

and also..

not to forget..

My favourite foods are..

local cuisine..sedappppp

and..

I can't resist..

My favourite color..

I live & born in..

I attended..

1989

1990 - 1991

1992 - 1994



1995 - 1999

2000 - 2003

My favourite movies are..

all time favourite..

My superhero..

classic love story

My hobbies are..

timeless..

and I definitely wish for..

Next tag goes to

1) Kak Ainil (if she is in the mood..hehe)

2) Kak Zu (if she is not busy with all the meetings..hehe)

3) Mat Cyber (if he is not too busy with food.. :p)

* Tak cukup 6, kira ok la ye..hehehe*

~fin~

P.A.L.E.S.T.I.N.E.

As I was watching Halaqah last night, I have the urgency to do this post. Ustaz Badli Shah, one of the panels, asked all the bloggers in Malaysia, to show their support to our Muslim brothers & sisters in Palestine. To show to the rest of the bloggers around the world how much we condemned the brutal act by the Israel towards Palestinians. I may not be able to contribute much to help, but I pray by doing this entry, I can help people to open up their eyes if its being close before to the killings of thousands Palestinians. I hope I can open up their mind if its never even think of the homeless / parentless children in Palestine before. I hope I can open up their heart or at least help them to have one..

A picture worth a thousand words...

should we tell this boy to runaway, to give up or to keep on fighting for his rights?

Who did she lost today I wonder? Husband? Father? Mother? Brother? Sister? Son or a daughter? Maybe she lost all of them..

someone or a family is waiting for this person to come home..

What is going to happen to this little boy?Will he survive?

What have you done to deserve this?

Will she lose another child tomorrow?

You will go straight to heaven for you have no sins..

"Why, why did you do this to us?"

In Islam Al-Aqsa is one of the three most sacred places after Mecca and Medina.

Did you know?
1)That, Masjidul Al Aqsa was the second Masjid on earth.
2)That, it was built 40 years after the Ka’ba in Makkah.
3)That, most scholars are of the opinion that Masjidul Al Aqsa was first built by Prophet Adam [as].
4)That, Ibrahim [as] rebuilt the Masjidul Al Aqsa in Jerusalem as he and Ismail [as] rebuilt the Ka’ba in Makkah.
5)That, Prophet Daud [as] began the rebuilding of Masjidul Al Aqsa.
6)That, it was Prophet Sulayman [as] who finally completed the building of Masjidul Al Aqsa.
7)That, Masjidul Al Aqsa built by Sulayman [as] was destroyed in 587 BC by Nebuchadnezzar King of Babylon.
8)That, the Jews call this same Masjidul Al Aqsa built by Sulayman [as] as their Temple.
9)That, the Jews re-built their Temple on them same site in 167 BC but was destroyed in 70 AD and Jews banished from Jerusalem.
10)That, the site of Masjidul Al Aqsa remained barren and was used as a rubbish tip for nearly 600 years until the Great Khalifah Umar bin Khattab liberated Jerusalem in 637/8 AD.
11)That, the Khalifah Umar bin Khattab began the foundation of Masjidul Al Aqsa and a timber mosque was built.
12)That, the Umayyad Khalifah, Abd’ al Malik ibn Marwan in 691/2 [72/73 AH] began the construction of, Dome of the Rock – today this is the Golden Domed Mosque.
13)That, the al Buraq wall or Western Wall where Prophet Muhammad [saas] tied his animal the Buraq on the night journey of al Isra is what the Jews call the wailing wall.
14)That, to Muslims it is the land or the Haram Sharif area which is most holy and important.
15)That, the Haram area of Al Aqsa has within it the Masjidul Al Aqsa [Black Domed Mosque] and Dome of the Rock [the Golden Domed Mosque].
16)That, Israel occupied Masjidul Al Aqsa in 1967.
17)That, the fundamentalist Jews have made 100’s of attempts to destroy Al Aqsa since 1967 when they occupied it. A fire in 1967 started by their help destroyed the 900 year old Mimbar installed by Slaudeen Ayub, the Great Muslim Hero.
18)That, the fundamentalist want to blow up and destroy Masjidul Al Aqsa and replace it with a Jewish Temple.

Alhamdulillah, I've done my part. Although it is a small one, but it counts. Like Ustaz Badli Shah said, "Do our best, let ALLAH swt does the rest" -amin-

0109

Seventh day of 2009..Alhamdulillah, masih bernafas (tetapi berada dalam keadaan yang sangat lapar..waaa).

Yesterday I received an email from my dear sister, kak eykien (she was my roommate back in uitm). She asked me about my new year resolutions. For the first time after so many years, I have none...I tried to think at least one, but my mind went blank..ya..pagi yang gelap, tak terang-terang!!

Satu azam aku yang masih kekal sampai sekarang, is to become a better person everyday. Alhamdulillah, walaupun tidak akan sempurna tetapi sudah ada sedikit perubahan pada diri ini. Berkat usaha, nawaitu dan juga doa dari orang sekeliling mungkin.

Aku pun tak tahu kenapa tahun ini, aku macam tak bersemangat pula pasang azam. Sepatutnya berkobar-kobar macam orang lain, but I feel numb instead..! Adakah aku mengalami simptom tidak dapat menerima hakikat umur semakin err..tua? Tidaaaaaaakkkk...I'm not afraid of getting older. Tak sabar tunggu umur 56, sebab tak payah kerja..ahaha (if I can make it la kan..huhu).

I hope all of you can stick to your new year resolutions..at least try to stick to it ok! As it for me, all I can say is.."Aku akan hidup baik-baik saja & selamat pagi cinta..!!!"

AnGaN-AnGaNKu

Seorang rakan selalu cakap, "ala, berangan tu kan free..so, berangan la puas-puas!". Tiada yang benar melainkan benar belaka prinsip itu. Berangan memang best, lagi best kalau angan-angan tadi menjadi realiti kan?kan..?kan??

Aku mula berangan seawal aku faham apa itu berangan dalam erti kata berangan yang sebenarnya. Kalau tak salah, waktu sekolah rendah lagi aku start berangan. Angan budak-budak, apalah sangat. Pernah berangan hendak ke disco sebab selalu tengok adegan drama melayu waktu itu. Berkata-kata pada diri sendiri, "mesti best kalau pergi..". Bila ditanya teman sedarjah, "apa ciri-ciri lelaki yang awak suka?" (ye, sudah ada yang bertanya seawal usia 12 tahun)..jawapan aku sangat mudah, "hensem, kaya & kereta besar!!" (budak-budak..jawapan pun kebudak-budakkan la). Itu antara angan-angan yang pernah aku idamkan. Hingga ke detik ini, tiada satu pun angan-angan tadi menjadi kenyataan..baik ke disco mahupun lelaki idaman (ciri-ciri lelaki yang disukai lebih realistik dari jawapan 14 tahun yang lalu..haha). Sungguhpun begitu, aku belum lagi berhenti dari berangan. Yang membezakan angan-angan aku dulu dan kini, aku mengharapkan angan-angan hari ini, menjadi kenyataan pada hari esok..kalau tak esok, lusa..pendek kata selagi hayat dikandung badan!

Dalam banyak angan-angan yang pernah aku angankan, ada satu yang memang aku impikan untuk menjadi kenyataan..I started to have this dream, eversince I started working. So, it has been about 4 years now. I have so many things to dream about, but this one is really personal for me, so I have to make it happen..no matter what! It is not a big dream but still, the dream is mine..do feel free to laugh if you feel like it, no heart feeling what so ever..!

Angan terbesar yang aku harap sangat jadi real is..going for a "sweet escape" alone..does it sound pathetic? I don't care if you think it is..kadang-kadang aku pun rasa sedikit pathetic la..ahahaha. Few location has been selected, within Malaysia..can't afford to go oversea..yet..muahahaha..negara sendiri pun banyak tempat best (sekadar menyedapkan hati sendiri yang kepingin membawa diri ke switzerland semata-mata nak tengok bunga tulip & beautiful mountains..ahahaha). Sudah pasti akan terdapat halangan dan mungkin tentangan kerana ini merupakan acara solo yang tak pernah dibuat orang dalam keluarga aku. Kiranya, aku sekadar hendak memecah tradisi..ahahahaha..Ya, ada ciri-ciri rebel di situ! Adik beradik yang lain, dah puas berjalan masa sekolah plus study kat uni dulu. Aku yang paling payah nak kemana-mana. Since dah semakin tua ni, takkanlah parents aku tak izin ye tak?

Apa pun, itu semua baru plan. Belum tahu angan yang satu ini boleh tercapai ke tidak. Apa pun aku berdoa dan berharap angan-angan ini akan menjadi satu realiti -amin-

cuba bayangkan aku yang duduk kat situ..waaahh..nikmatnya hidup :)

Me & mY EmOtiONs

Kalau ikut jam handphone, lagi tiga minit pukul 11.00 malam. Sesungguhnya tika dan saat ini, aku dalam mood yang bosan, sangat bosan..bosan..bosan dan ya, bosan!! T.V semuanya tunjuk filem pasal krismas..ye la, esokkan 25 Disember...mungkin kerana itu aku..hmm..bosan lagi..

So, here I am, sitting in front of this pc, updating my blog while listening to my current favorite song, "Terima Kasih Cinta - Afgan". Just now, my two nephews nabil and najmi came into this room. Ninja yang dua itu memang lambat tidur. Lambat macam mana pun, budak-budak tu sure tidur lena setiap malam..tak macam ucu diorang..waaaaaaa...

Still listening to the song while typing this. Hari ini aku diserang pelbagai emosi. Benci, marah, happy, sedih dan tak lupa..ya bosan! Lately so many thoughts intruded my head and my heart. Mungkin kerana itu semua emosi bergabung..sekadar ingin memeriahkan ataupun menyemakkan suasana. That is life nurulhuda elias..hmm..ya, tau..

Benci mengingatkan segolongan manusia yang..hmm..unfortunately blood related dengan aku. Sangat benci hinggakan muka pun aku tak nak tengok..bak kata arwah nenek aku, "cemuih aih..". Aku bersyukur kerana selama ini, aku belum pernah meminta mahupun mengharap apa-apa pertolongan daripada golongan-golongan manusia tersebut. Benci dan marah kerana aku ada kaitan dengan manusia-manusia itu..manusia-manusia yang tahap hipokritnya memang menjengkelkan serta memualkan. Konon-kononnya mereka itu orang yang beradab, berbudi bahasa, murah hati. Carilah dalam kamus peradaban manusia, perkara yang baik-baik itu adalah mereka dan mereka adalah orang yang baik-baik belaka. Dalam kamus hidup aku mereka adalah manusia lidah bercabang, talam dua muka, mata duitan, busuk hati dan yang sinonim dengannya!!. Bersyukurlah sekiranya manusia-manusia spesis ini tiada dalam susur galur keluarga korang. Yes, I am very much serious hating those people. Aku tidak memutuskan silaturrahim, cuma aku menganggap manusia-manusia ini tidak wujud sama sekali dalam hidup aku.

Masih melayan suara Afgan. Next week will be my last day at the office. Am I happy to leave? Rasa gembira itu mestilah ada tapi sedikit sedih sebab meninggalkan teman-teman yang gila-gila, teman-teman gosip..I am happy because despite my complaint about my work, I did learn a lot from it. I have gained some experience that I've been searching for. Tak banyak, tetapi cukup untuk aku adaptasikan. Sekurangnya, aku tau, "don't ever accept any job that requires you to do personal things...ever!!!"..baik!! Today, me and my colleagues, including "si be.." had lunch at t.g.i friday's. They told me it was for my farewell..thank you so much. Siapalah aku yang nak dirai di tempat sebegitu. I knew they had planned something for me tapi aku ingat makan biasa-biasa. Alhamdulillah, semoga murah rezeki korang dan soon to be ex boss -amin-. Terharu sebab like I said, siapalah aku? Mark my words, I will never ever forget all of you (excluding my bosses), especially you my twin. Mengenangkan hari-hari terakhir di situ, aku tolong diorang chop drawing. Sempatlah bersembang mesra dengan staf baru. Ada yang keluarkan statement,"eh..awak tak balik lagi?".. Kagum ke perli tu?Hmm...

Rasa bosan beransur hilang. Mungkin kerana jam di pc menunjukkan pukul 12.13 a.m. Listening to "Terima Kasih Cinta" for the last time, before I save and publish this post. Inilah rentetan hidup aku semalam. Hope to have a peaceful day today, starting with a good night sleep...zzzzzzzzz

JuALan MeGa

It is the end of 2008. What is the best thing during this time around?? Sale, sale and more sale..

Aku bolehlah dikategorikan dalam golongan perempuan yang suka shopping..hehe..tapi taklah sampai semua shopping mall kat kl ini aku redah :p.. To some people, shopping is a form of therapy. Hanya dengan membeli sepasang kasut, segala stress dan problemo lenyap. Bagi segelintir orang, shopping merupakan penawar duka lara. Pengertian shopping itu sangat berbeza antara lelaki dan perempuan. Pada kaum Adam, shopping mungkin satu aktiviti yang menjurus kepada pembaziran. Aku sebagai Hawa merasakan shopping itu hanyalah sekadar untuk kepuasan diri semata. Sedia maklum, kami orang perempuan nafsunya berangka dua digit, lelaki hanyalah berangka tunggal..Kepakaran bershopping, belum ada dilatih di mana-mana institusi pun di dunia ini. This is something that we learn or develop along the way. Kebijaksanaannya juga bergantung kepada tahap kesabaran mental seseorang. Bijak mengawal emosi dan ringgit ketika berbelanja, barulah boleh bergelar "pembeli berhemah". Pembaziran wajib dielakkan. Membazir itukan sahabat syaitan..eeeee...

Menyingkap sejarah aku mula berjinak-jinak dengan aktiviti bershopping, segalanya berlaku bila pinjaman ptptn aku lulus..ahahaha..Setiap kali tiba musim sale, aku mesti beli sekurang-kurangnya sehelai baju. Masa inilah aku belajar memakai pakaian yang ada brand kononnya..sehelai sahaja sudah cukup memuaskan hati biarpun harga baju itu sekadar RM29.90! Sekarang, since aku makan gaji, kalau shopping tu, taklah rasa bersalah sangat sebab beli guna duit sendiri..kuikuikui..

Normally I will go shopping with my mother or my girlfriends. Sometimes I just go by myself. Kalau pergi berteman, at least I can get some opinion about this dress or that shoes. Berteman ataupun tidak, dapat shopping memang best sangat-sangat!!! Another thing that I like about going shopping, I get to observe people. Who says going shopping is a wasteful activity??

Normally, pemerhatian aku tumpukan pada orang lelaki. Sekadar mencuci mata dan pada waktu yang sama melihat eksperisi mereka sementara menunggu girlfriend / tunang / isteri membuat pilihan. Kelakar ada, kesian pun ada. Ada yang sampai menguap tak tahulah kali keberapa, si perempuan masih belum buat keputusan ataupun masih belum keluar dari fitting room. Ada lelaki yang kelihatan sangat bosan, seperti dia dipaksa keluar rumah pada hari sabtu itu. Ada juga lelaki yang tunggu di luar kedai. Tak kuasa nak bersesak-sesak. Macam mana nak masuk, kalau anak kecil sedang dipangku. Suami yang sporting la ni agaknya, "takpe ayang, abang jaga baby, ayang pegi la masuk.."ahaha..Ada pula lelaki yang ke hulu ke hilir membawa beg tangan menuruti si perempuan dari department handbag, ke department kasut dan ke setiap department yang ada di shopping complex itu. Hati aku pun berbisik jahat, "eleh, tengah sayang, sanggup la bawakan handbag, ikut je..bila dah kahwin anak satu, takde camtu de...."enough said...hehe..

Melihat telatah manusia bershopping memang best! Macam-macam kerenah yang aku dapat tengok. Kalaupun tangan kosong, tapi otak aku tak. Selagi bujang, shopping adalah satu perkara wajib bagi aku. Siapa pun tak boleh bising sebab aku guna duit sendiri. Kerja penat-penat, at least, nak jugalah nampak hasil depan mata, ya tak?? Manalah tahu, suami aku nanti, banyak pantang larang bila tiba bab-bab shopping ni kan..

I really love this time around..can't wait to get my cheque for this month..can't wait to go shopping..again..!!!!!! ;)